I don't want a relationship with any man. I mean there are some things I like about men but I just feel wrong when staying with one.
I can feel you on this aspect. I'm the same way with women, although I would love to have a family myself one of these days, I cannot bring myself to actually feeling love towards another woman based by my past relationships.
And I'm not interested in guys, so my only hope for raising a family is adoption, but no adoption agencies will allow a single man to adopt.
So, I'm stuck.
Although I've started to think that for me it's impossible to have a relationship in general, I am cause of constant frustration for anyone who tries.
Why do you think that way? You and I have a cordial relationship, you and Bloodrose have that too. You can do it if you just be yourself, and I promise you that is all any guy expects from you, if they are serious about taking it to the next level.