Arrrrrrrrggggggggggggg, my head is going to explode.
So earlier this week I had my tired blow out. Well, luckily there was a tire shop right where I pulled over so I just was like whatever and spent $40 on a used tire.
Ahahahaha, god has a sense of humor, the used tire I got blew out on me this morning. So I ripped my truck to shreds trying to find my emergency jack which I used not even a week ago. I swear I put it back in the little turny knob place that it goes, but nope... nowhere to be seen. Had to call road side because I couldn't find my damned jack and I was out near Joe Pool Lake and insanely pissed.
~.~ I only made an 87 on my damned test this week, which is pathetic because I have already taken the damned class and should of been able to make an A. So I am going to have to break down and buy the *** book because my paramedic book only explains advanced ***so it is next to worthless in my EMT-B class. Can't find it used for the *** life of me, I have checked everywhere. So get to go to the book store tomorrow and drop $220 on the book/workbook combo because they wont sell just the *** book. On top of a new tire. On top of a doctor's appointment, on top of on top of on top of.
~.~ I *** had almost $3,500 in my savings before school, I am at $600 right now and that is about to be gone this weekend. In the span of 3 weeks I have almost completely drained my bank account. I'm seriously about to break down and cry, I don't know if I can handle things any more. I feel like I'm *** 18 and clueless again.
I'm not going to be able to pay for paramedic class as soon as I'm out of EMT (paramedic is roughly $5k out of pocket) and I'm probably gonna owe about $2,000 in taxes this year. The only time I have ever felt this bleak was when I was younger, drinking copiously, and tried to kill myself. I am just going *** insane again and the worst part is I can see it happening.
Uggggh.
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