By Asura.Vyre 2012-01-14 02:05:55
It's not that much a puzzle. You probably just feel awkward because you'd tried not to be involved with him for so long before now. Either that, or your sub conscious could be coming up with a slightly strange way to cope, though I can't think of the word for it right now.
Didn't know you lost your brother, or maybe I'm just a terrible person and forgot :(
I don't know how you feel, but my brain is trying to Sherlock Holmes it. Do you feel like that you feel it's as if you felt your brother was a barrier to a possible relationship, so you would feel guilty if you just suddenly started one up now? I mean, there's not much wrong with that, even if it's only a little nibbling sensation. Anyone would/could feel like that if put in the same situation.
Course, I really rather think you just feel kind of weird about it, it's that simple, and that you should just go for it if you want it. There's no real harm in it, from what I can tell.