Random Thoughts.....What Are You Thinking?

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and if the Dr actually suggests you to talk to someone instead of making you keep coming back for more meds. Holy crap your doctor is awesome.
Any involve 14 year olds?

Uhm, well the characters of Soul Eater Not! are 14~16 I think.

Anyway don't take meds. Really, don't do it.

Doesn't count >:
and what was that "visual novel" you've mentioned on here before called?

Ahh yeh I never thought about that. Thing is I've put up with it for 3 years but now I have responsibilities to other people and I cannot concentrate on my work, my head is constantly filled with negative thoughts and emotions and it's just impossible to shut them out and focus on any kind of work or studying unless it's something active and distracting like exercise. I just can't shut it out and I just want to sleep all the time. It's not like I'm a wreck, I just can't go on living my life feeling miserable all the time wanting to never wake up q_q

Umineko No Naku Koro Ni(I think you're referring to that).

Don't think that meds will make anything better. They'll make you even more pitiful. Only you can fight it. Go to a shrink if you need, but don't erase yourself from the responsibility just thinking that the pills will take care of it.

I got given meds and diagnosed with clinical depression :/ but they are not heavy meds just enough to alter the serotonin levels in my body.

I have an actual chemical imbalance and I will never feel better until I medicate it (only needs temporary treatment to rectify), it's not something you can pull yourself out of once the problem has manifested, believe me I have tried for 3 years. I agree with you though, I have always seen it as a mental weakness and refused to resort to treatment thinking I had the power of will to fight it off, but like I said it's developed into a physical thing, so where the root of the problem may lie in my mind and attitude, I am unable to do anything about it until I get round the physical barrier.

I thought I was reading it right. :3

Justifications. I do that all the time. The physiological cure will eventually make its course, however that doesn't mean you don't have to do anything along with it.

For me I need a goal, I need to be driven to excel at something and that something has to be difficult to obtain, if I am not striving for something above the norm I feel like my talents are going to waste. I can't do an ordinary job or an ordinary career, it's not enough for me and that's a big part of where the depression stems from.

I have made a huge lifestyle change recently, I have moved out of the environment that I associated with the depression and I am at college going after an ambition. Half the reason I made the change in my life was to kick start a new chapter and get out of the depressive ways. However, I cannot change my thoughts and my brain chemistry. The thoughts are always there, there is no way to block them out. Without sounding crazy, it's like someone whispering in your ear 24/7 and being asked to ignore everything they say. The meds are to remedy my serotonin imbalance and stop those negatives.

If I was your doctor I'd give you a placebo.

It's interesting you say that because I do alot of activities where the mind is encouraged to trick the body and one of the reasons I never sought treatment for so long was because I thought I could trick myself into thinking I was over it. Alas, you cannot trick science :/

get meds and feel better sagi!

Ty :)

Also> 1,999 posts!!!!! :O

i'm just wondering..have you ever been clinically depressed?

But Science can, and has, tricked you.

Yes. This is why I know how depressed people act and think. They're all the same. They pretend to be objectively accepting their own faults and trying to make up for it, instead they build a castle of excuses to avoid the blame and whine passively. It's a thin double-faced medal and most people don't even realize it.

But I'm not going to discuss about Sagi further than what I said previously cause no one's situation can be reduced to a small picture.

Idk just seems kind of insensitive to me..I'm on a very small dose anti-depressent and seeing someone and I've never felt better..way better than I did a month ago.

I agree with everything Seha has put out.

lemme guess, you've been clinically depressed too?

Nope, but I've dealt with a lot of friends that have been or claimed to be. It's always the same thing; the things they say.

On a higher note: My computer already recognizes that this is the site I frequent the most. :O Three times as much as Facebook.

Pitying a depressed person doesn't make them any good. You need a good dose of slaps along with understanding to really help them.

Screw the rules, I'm in love with Nurse Joy!

so what exactly am i supposed to do then when my whole life my dad tells me im never good enough, and that im *** up because im gay, get constantly hammered about it in society, and just want to shoot myself? i don't know about you, but it's not "so easy" to just get over it. i'm not saying an ssri is a fix, because it's not, but it seems to help me start to fix with counseling, then i should be off it.

You assume that this looks easy in my eyes. You have no idea what I've faced and what I've felt. I have simply learnt how people like me act.
I'm not going to enter details or deeper into this matter.

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