Random Thoughts.....What Are You Thinking?

I got ilvl afterglowed Farsha :D! All thanks to Packets LS members just flooding me with Boulders for no apparent reason. They feel like homies!

But my casual Sortie static apparently doesn't like my stinky butt anymore and is breaking after I get Stage 3 Helheim (so by Friday, we make about 20~24k galli a run).

Blugh. I need to find work again. Not just cause bills are adding up, but so I can have an excuse for not having time to do a Sortie static at all. I haven't had the rug snatched out from under me in a social situation this bad in quite a long time. I thought we were having a good time, and not taking it too seriously (hence casual). And we tried to up our flow to get G boss down on a whim, and everything went sour when we failed. Just the once. I don't know if we were supposed to stop being casual at that point, or if I was supposed to talk them out of trying it or what. There wasn't any shouting, no one seemed to be real mad, just kinda disappointed. We salvaged the run and still made like 17k galli. But idk, the vibe check failed after we got out of E basement and our COR warped out after we split to finish up ground floor minis.

After maybe 2 months of procrastination, today I will finally look for a new home.

Though its not like I just stood there doing nothing during that time. I thought and rethought about the best approach of that, I went from buying a cheap house to renting a good house to finally decide that I can rent a cheap house if it has the bare minimum and it has good localization.

It wont be in the next 2 years that I will live in a place I always wanted to, but Im somehow satisfied with my current decision, I still need to struggle a bit more before my "happy ending".

The next few years will be crucial to me. The risk of being demanded to become full office is real. Next month I will already increase my days at office from 2 to 3. Expectations is to have all 5 there till december.

I dont want to give up home office. For example, today I woke up 3am to start working, so I can finish at 11, so I can spend the evening looking for a home. Aside the morning is when Im at my top form.

Such flexibility simply doesnt exist at office, as Im forced to enter 7am and finish at 4pm, plus like 1h just going and coming back, basically consuming my entire day.

My next challenge after finding my new home is to hone my skills to find a new job that allows me to keep home office. Also, once my skills are mildly acceptable, trying to generate passive incomes somehow.

We will see.

Sortie, the ffxi killer.