You're the great sehachan, you'll be OK.
I'm not that great.
i wont dispute your feeling on the issue. i would however say that i have a different perspective on who you are outside of how you see yourself. i've interacted with you for years via this place. i've seen you break down and you always pick yourself back up. i think that's pretty great.
i've dealt with stress, anxiety, and depression since i was like six. i don't claim to know why you're stressed. nor that i can fix it or that it's my place to try. however, i have been down that road. i don't expect whatever is going on to take you down.