Random Thoughts.....What Are You Thinking?

Ugh... those days when you have to force yourself to do stuff. Woke up today at work (late-ish), went to school, accomplished a whole lot of nothing at school and would of been better off staying home, got home, worked out, showered, now trying to find the rest of my will power to do PCRs on FISDAP from my clinical last weekend. And another clinical tomorrow, yay!

Only two weeks in and I'm drained from this 7 days a week ***.

Running 7 days a week until mid-July Work > School > Clinical, then like a 2 week reprieve of only Work > School > Off (so like 4 days off), and then Clinical II starts August and lasts until mid-January. After that we get like a month off from clinicals and just have class, but then kick into over drive and have 10 24-hour shifts at a fire station (A, B, C rotation) on top of class, on top of national registry review, on top of life the last month.

And next.

Apparently my dad's car is borked and he wants to "borrow" my truck until it is fixed. Which ultimately amounts to him wanting to take my truck and keep it because he is sick of his car and doesn't want to get it fixed. In essence it would leave me stranded on my motorcycle regardless of sun, rain, tiredness, or want of A/C some days. Not to mention I can't ride my bike to clinicals because of all the ***I need to take with me.

So obviously I was just shy of telling him to go *** himself unless he wants to make my truck and insurance payments. He gets pissed that I said no, takes it out on my mom, and then she comes back to me to try and guilt me into basically giving him a free car. Because I'm sure eventually he would just offer to buy my truck, so I would get stuck with my wife's POS and she would get a newer POS with the money we got. Which does not go in my plan for life, I like my truck and I would like to get my wife a nice car for once after school. I still said no, and told my wife to say she doesn't have a spare key to my truck if asked. So... drama hasn't even started yet for this.

I would seriously rather it sit out in front of the house while I'm out at work or school on my bike than let him drive it. He hasn't been to work for 3 *** months "because of his back." His car is just his latest excuse not to go back to work, I seriously *** wonder how he even has a job.

And now.

I was hoping to have some "quality time" with the wife tonight. ***, even just a night watching a movie in bed together would of made me happy. So of course we get dumped with my nephew for something that has magically come up for the night, despite everyone knowing this is basically my only night home for a while.

So here I am sitting in my room alone, procrastinating and venting on the internet. I knew this wasn't going to be easy trying to be an adult at my parent's house, working full time, and going to school... but I really didn't think it would be this *** hard either.